So I've been doing some reevaluating as of late and I've come to a conclusion on it. STOP. It essentially has done me no good, because it causes me to doubt my abilities and my actions. I've always said, "You're as prepared as you can be. No need to worry." I need to start doing that more. I keep getting in these situations where I sit and contemplate if I really can do the things I want to. I sit and wonder if I really am prepared. That isn't me. I think it was a good thing our battery died yesterday while we were shopping. The automotive center was too busy to do it for us before they closed, but I was free to borrow their tools. (Besides, changing a battery isn't exactly hard, or medium difficulty for that matter.) I suppose when I got to it, it reminded me that I can handle these things. I have the tools before me to get these things, I just need to utilize them. I have all these people in my life and I don't have the ability to thank them all. The people who I've not seen in a while I miss, and the ones who I have seen I'd like to hang out with. I 'm thankful even for xanga, as much as I seem to disagree with it as of late. Who knows, maybe it is just another virtual thinking pad. Someplace I can arrange thoughts and hope they fit together.

On to other things. I need to shorten my presentation it seems, as I am a bit over prepared. The people who will be reviewing my submission only have so much time. I also need to get the last bits done. I need a few pages and then I'll color and send them. Not bad progress, and then I'll hear what they think. Anyway, if anyone is interested in seeing the progress thus far, let me know. I'll throw out this initial sneak peek.

In other news (Last bit I swear.) my new spikes are amazing. I now know why the center plate is so important. I've been "making due" with mid-distance spikes and that was so wrong. The weight, shape, and build of this spike is so much more conducive to jumping. Anyway, the goal is to be in London in 2012. I'm not taking my eyes off that goal. Anyway, I'll wrap this up by saying later all.

One.

Have you ever gotten to that point where you can see things aligning along some form of invisible fulcrum. I could honestly swear I see that point coming. Things have been all kinds of crazy, and yet I see a bit of clarity due to it. There are certain elements I'm glad that I was exposed to. They helped me see the kinds of people I want to associate with. As well as those I don't want to be associated with. I feel motivated and creative and I see this positive attitude coming about. It seems almost contagious, as it seems to even spread out into people I see everyday on the bus, or that I work with.

The other part of this clarity is seeing and missing people that I am really close to, or use to be. We all lead our lives and I sit and think about how much I wish to be a part of it. So from now on I am going to try and be more involved. I am motivated to act on my convictions and let myself be seen. It might mean doing some things that people might not agree with, but it is the choice I'm making. I feel that if I don't at least try, I won't set a good enough example for my daughter, my wife, my brothers, or my sisters. So here is to moving and working on what I feel.

Lastly, I am so very thankful for the core group around me. Without you all, I don't think I'd be as grounded as I am now. I wouldn't be so motivated to do things and get these ideas out there. The very title of this entry is a part of that. Only one person knows what it means right now. That's okay though. I intend to let everyone know soon enough and I hope it works out. It's not set in stone, but I like it nonetheless.

 "I want to show you something you've seen before, and still wow you with my rendition. Maybe it's new, maybe it's borrowed, but damn if it ain't cool."

Screw you Barry Bonds. That record isn't yours and I shall never look to as a leader in anything except how to juice and get away with it. I pray your record is stripped from you in short order.

Photo's for reference.

Barry Bonds

Tell me that's a natural progression....